Yesterday I was having very deep thoughts as I rode the escalator up and down at work. Something occurred to me–no idea now what sparked it–but as I watched the bodies around me it hit me that there are some things we should chase after and some we should not. As the meme correctly states, affection, love and attention are in the “never chase” column. That hit me hard yesterday. I want to be liked and respected in my new career. And then it hit me: if I chase after my dreams and my desires the right kind of attention will come my way.
Forget asking any more guys out. Naw. Things ain’t nobody got time for–chasing down a dude. Hey, I’m here. I’m the epitome of single. You wanna go out? Ask. Funny thing is I admitted to one person on the planet that I do have a mild crush. You know, that overly interested in what he’s doing and when I run into him find it hard to speak thing. This confidant was all, “Oh my gosh he is so freaking cute and super sweet you guys would be so…” I’m like whoa there sista, don’t get my hopes up! But we did talk about how if anyone could understand the fact that I enjoy my job and its my passion, it would be someone like him.
I’m chasing my dreams, folks. It’s not going to be easy–if even possible–for someone to understand that. And I don’t blame him. It would take serious maturity and confidence to spend little time together and have patience with a demanding schedule. My conclusion is that I am better off not chasing down anyone right now. Besides, as I pointed out to the confidant, we work together. I pointed out reasons this is a bad idea to even ponder and she countered with why that may be an excellent thing and how her relationship lasted a decade under similar constructs. No, I’m happy watching from afar. He makes me smile and he’s busy. Maybe he knows my name–maybe NOT!–but either way, not chasing that down.
I know many love the morning videos, but they are glimpses and not the whole picture. For one thing, my dry wit doesn’t come across well. I’m not entirely sure you all are laughing at the same things I am when I re-watch them. My sense of humor is skewed and I like to make fun of myself more than anyone. (Note that I have mad respect for Ghetto Ninja) Writing is my thing. It’s what I do. Twice this week I have been reminded of journalistic milestones that never made the resume. If I focus on what makes me happy and being patient with myself as I learn a new industry and culture, everything will happen like it should. I firmly believe if we chase what’s in our hearts, that life will put even more than we expected before us.
Chase dreams. Chase friends when they try to board the crazy train. Chase fun. Chase hope. Chase the things that make you smile and don’t have too much attachment to them. Enjoy the moment and the one after that and the one after that and the one after that….. Chase coffee so you can chase a new idea 😊