The last 24 hours I’ve been pondering the mysteries of the universe quite heavily. (Shocking, I know.) I’ve identified one of my setbacks is the attachment to how things should be in my mind.  And, furthermore, I’ve reached the conclusion that one never really has true faith until you let the way you hope it turns out free and instead decide that there is far more than you’re brain can comprehend unfolding and you have to just let it all be.  Whatever ending you’re predicting or hoping for is quite unlikely to occur.  Not to say you can’t have goals and such, because come on I’m far too results-oriented to go that far, but I think you need to draw a line.  And, perhaps, my line is moved quite a distance farther than it was.

This has been quite conflicting since so many gurus say you have to develop a picture in your mind of what you want and be so clear that nothing can stray you from your course.  Today I wonder if what if the picture in my mind was simply “happy.”  If so, then I’d be at 100%!  I don’t think a day can go by on Earth where us humans don’t encounter some form of unpleasantry, dysfunction, or irrationality.  Or shit, sometimes you just get a flat tire for no reason.  So first thing is noting life has its moments and your days will come with surprises.  A lot of which aren’t jolly.  But the main thing I’ve discovered is that it really doesn’t have to make you unhappy.  And by placing perfection in the same category as happy, I see a ton of friends, family, and strangers suffering so much more than they need be. 

I could give you a laundry list of items that could get in the way of my happiness.  And, if we wanted, we could sit together and review your own list of things that suck, hurt, disappointed, and fell apart at the seams.  And maybe we’d feel better.  Or maybe we could have spent the time doing something productive instead.  Crafters? Drinkers? Writers? Music lovers? Anyone?  We can find something to do that would bring joy instead of using that time and energy discussing what doesn’t do us any good.  Not that isn’t healthy and useful to vent.  I just think before you vent consider the real challenge and focus on what truly matters.  Most of all, remember all the times if things hadn’t gone wrong you might have missed a gift that you didn’t know you even wanted!  The universe works like a supermarket in my head.  But one that has a contest going all the time.  You didn’t want to run out of milk and have to stop in, but after twenty minutes in line and $4 later they announce you’re the 4 millionth customer and you win $1000 gift card.  (I don’t know how my brain operates, just go with it)  I think everything in general is kinda like that.  You envision going home and cooking without burning the house down only to find out there’s no milk but you win!  Sometimes you run into friends while you’re in line and say hello.  Maybe your smile or something you say makes their day better.  I dunno; the possibilities are endless. 

So I’ve been practicing the last 48 hours when I catch myself formulating some story of in my head of how life should be or “wouldn’t it be awesome if…” I will instead elect to breath deeply and say instead “the universe will work it out exactly how it’s supposed to.”  There’s usually a need to repeat that more than once for my brain to comprehend and actually stop the thought train.  Luckily I’m A.D.D. and Amy’s playing with glitter so a definite stop in thinking is always in my immediate future.