I’ve written like 5 blogs this last couple of weeks but nothing is worthy of publishing.  It’s all been a big soup of crap inside my head.  Today, I listened to my favorite inspirational speaker [Iyanla Vanzant, duh], slept like a baby with a GREAT nap, woke up and used good hair products, had a HUGE ass steak cooked for me with a fresh salad and tasty tater, and curled up next to the man and half the dogs I love for an hour of tv.  My mind is more clear now than it has been.  And, as I write, my Chloe is seemingly happy laying on the couch, I hear one roommate IMing while she plays Yahtzee and the others are celebrating alone in their room, likely snuggled together.  No, my world is not perfect—nor would I have it be—but it is serene here and I remember that despite the seemingly unnecessary struggles my friends face, it is all in perfect order of the universe.

I guess a lot of people have trouble with my trust in the universe.  But, it’s where I am on the journey.  And earlier today I was thinking about each individual’s journey.  I had to remind myself everyone must take a different path.  No two can be the same.  And, further, how incredibly blessed we are when we find those who desire to share the walk with us.  Be it friends, family, co-workers, pets…whatever soul we get to see a little bit of should be in the blessings category.  We don’t always catch people at their brightest or biggest but sometimes we do.  Maybe that’s why hearing my roommates [and dog] doing the things they love brings me peace.  And then, as I began writing, I got a couple of texts from Chris that just really rounded the whole shebang out.  There isn’t peace on earth, but there’s some right here.  For these small things, I cannot express my gratitude enough. 

I’m supposed to be a writer—someone full of words that should just spew forth and change the world—but all I got tonight is that if you are blessed to be in a peaceful home surrounded by someone who loves you or things that you have tended to with love, than I hope that eases your soul as much as it does mine.  So often people think, “I’ll be happy when ______” and you can insert your own variance.  It can be when I have kids, when I get married, when I drive a new car, when I have a new job, when I can afford this that & the other bauble or bling thingy.  Whatever.  I’m thrilled that my life isn’t in disarray and that I overcame issues that held me back.  I’m thrilled to see my friends reaching successful milestones and others taking life’s hardest hits with grace and perseverance.  You can’t put a price tag on happiness.  And if your life’s happiness starts with this symbol: $…you gonna have a long, long battle ahead.  I fully believe the universe will not hand you more than you can handle.  And if you aren’t tending to the blessings before you, how you expect to gain more?  I don’t know anything, these are just my musings.  Mostly brought on the greatest muse in the world who reminds me daily how beautiful life can be when we’re ready to receive love.

Goodnight world.