It has recently been decided (no, there wasn’t a vote or anything) that I am happier than I have ever been. My mind is clear, my focus is on what’s important to me, & I feel that my dreams are closer than ever. And to me, that might be the closest thing to bliss I’ll ever know. The greatest shift is realizing that “bliss” lies in the repetition of peace, happiness, and fulfillment in my life as opposed to blissful moments.

I’ve had the incredible blessing of blissful moments throughout the last 34 years. But it doesn’t compare to the extended period where I find that I am ok in the world just as it stands. Finally, I’m content with my troubles; things like being single, not having kids, my dog approaching her twilight, a stagnant career, and no money. So what? No one has it perfect. Maybe they have some of these things I just named, but no one’s life is perfect nor shall it be. It’s taking a bumpy road and smiling as you bounce along that creates authentic joy. I have learned to do that. I am grateful for what I have and more importantly grateful for what I lack.

My greatest teacher has been gratitude. And it dawned on me–& I had to meditate on this for several months to actually experience it–things have to come to fruition. No magic potion is delivered. And I could kick my old self (but nobody got time for that either) for unconsciously being irritable because things weren’t happening for me. Things WERE happening for me. Pieces, people, places were coming together. And the most free feeling of all is knowing that life is always doing that for me. Something awesome is always in the works for me.

I don’t have time to be bitter. Also, I’ve noticed my appreciation of people has been extended. Am I looking for a mate? Well, sure I guess you could say that. I’ll keep my eyes open. But pursuing and being observant to the universes nudges are two very different mindsets. I find honesty, passion for hobbies, spirituality, and sense of humor & adventure are trumping good looks, fast cars, and fun. I find people who are comfortable with themselves and content in their life to be super attractive. Make me laugh? Well you’ll score more points with that (and a deep discussion of ideas that matter to you) than you will buying me a drink.

I just look in the mirror and think “that girl is beautiful, has an infectious and annoying laugh she uses often, has a spiritual energy that’s on fire, has dreams in her heart that are coming into bloom, and makes better decisions now than ever before.” It’s the freest I have ever been.