It took like 15 minutes for my computer to warm up & act decent enough for me to get to the point where I can even write a blog.  Unfortunately, I only had about 20-30 minutes to write.  So, let it rip.

My day started with Chloe tossing & whining.  I was saying “No! Go back to sleep!” and that’s when she farted in my face.  My attitude changed immediately as the air around me began to change.  So, up we were.  I was grouchy but then I realized I have no reason at all to be in a bad mood.  Sure, my life isn’t perfect.  For a decade I was driven into thinking that money would change that.   I make approximately 5 times what I did in 2002.  It’s been comfortable and convenient, yet it never managed to fill a gap inside me no matter how hard I shopped.  My mindset was always on “when I get one of ___” instead of “I am so glad I have ______________________” and please note the latter is a a lot bigger than the former.  So lately, I’ve come to believe and feel that no matter what I buy, I can only fill anything inside me wanting for a more perfect self with more of me.  No car, condo, or outfit is going to change a thought or a feeling.

It’s quite freeing.  But you’d think I’d have had more money! 😀  The trip to NYC wasn’t expensive as one might guess (I guess) but it drained me.  Now with unexpected tiny costs mounting up, I’m not free to buy anything.  And I’m kinda–in a weird way–very happy about it.  It’s like a challenge to myself.  “There, you can’t go buy your way out of this, work around it.”  Being forced to stay home and not go out several nights a week is going to be the biggest challenge.  I should write or clean.  I did clean a little last night but I also caught up on my DVR some, read some, played some internet games, potted some plants and mostly loved on my little dog.  Unsure of tonight’s adventure but I’m hoping a little creativity might creep up on me and lend some artistic endeavor of some sort, especially welcome any of the linguistic nature.  I have a script idea that needs to be worked out and put onto paper.  Or digital paper.

Don’t forget to be grateful today.